Uterine rupture. Not what I thought!

I have been going back and forth on whether or not I wanted to try for a VBAC. My first two babies were c-section babies.  The reason I wanted a VBAC is because the recovery for a c-section is awful! It was definitely way worse with my first since I was in labor for 17 hours then had a c-section.  So I was recovering labor and pushing as well as recovering from a surgery.  The second was not nearly as bad since I just went in and had the c-section with no labor or anything. So that time I just had to worry about recovering from the surgery.  With two young children at home I thought it would be so much easier to recover from a vaginal birth instead of a c-section. Especially since you can't lift anything after a c-section.  I was researching all about VBACS. I read about how great they are and the only complication really was uterine rupture, which was very rare.  That is all they would really say about it. I guess in my head I thought if there was a uterine rupture that they would just rush you into an emergency c-section and then everything would be fine. Maybe longer recover period.  Then I can across an article online about a lady that had her uterine rupture during a VBAC. I then found out that if your uterus ruptures then is a high chance that your baby will die or have brain damage due to the lack of oxygen to the baby.  It also is very life threatening to the mother.  Now I am not sure I can go through with a VBAC.  I know a lot of people do it everyday and the chances of your uterus rupturing is less than 1%, but the main reason I wanted to have a VBAC is so my recovery was faster and easier and so that I could experience having a baby vaginally.  Now that I have the facts, I feel selfish even trying to have a VBAC knowing that I am putting my baby's life in jeopardy.  The things I have found that are risks for the baby with a c-section are respiratory problems and harder time nursing. Which both of my boys were c-section babies and both nursed so I am not really worried about that. I am worried about the respiratory issues because my second son was actually in the NICU for respiratory issues and that is part of the reason I wanted a VBAC as well.  But I think I would rather have a baby in the NICU with respiratory issues instead of a baby in the NICU with brain damage or even worse.  Having a baby has a lot of risks no matter how the baby comes out.  I don't look down on people that have VBACS at all.  I may even change my mind and try as well.  It just hit me really hard today because I was unaware of what uterine rupture really meant. It was just a huge shock.  I have been researching VBACS since before I even got pregnant with this baby. My sister talked to her doctor about having one and they decided that they would schedule a c-section on her due date and if she went into labor before that date then she would try a VBAC. When my sister asked about the VBAC her doctor warned her about uterus rupturing but didn't really explain what happened when it did rupture. My sister asked if she ever had one of her patients rupture and all her doctor said was 'Let's just say I have seen it all'   So all this talk and research about VBACS, I NEVER ONCE came across what it meant when your uterus ruptured nor did I think to really look that up.  But I may end up doing more research and change my mind and try for the VBAC. I am just really emotional right now, being pregnant an all, that when I read this it just hit me hard. I think because I just pictured myself in these ladies situation and I want to protect my baby as much as I can. He/she is way to precious to be taken so early and I want to do everything I can to avoid it, not increase it.